Bikram I’m back!

2 months & 17 days in from recovering & adjusting to mommy hood I get to visit the Bikram shala with my mat! What an experience! I had a feeling of gratitude through most of the practice. However, at times I really missed my little son since I never have been away from him before. I cannot imagine mama’s who have to work & leave their little blessings at home!! I am soo blessed to be able to stay home with my little spirit!

At first it was easy going through all the breathing & initial poses but after about 30 minutes I was ready to throw in the towel. My mind started feeling sorry for myself as I was still recovering from pregnancy I thought….at around 50 minutes of heat, sweat & yoga I finally started to really enjoy the practice. My feelings of gratitude & happiness came back! And the timing of waiting for more than 2 months felt perfect! I wouldn’t have enjoyed doing Bikram anytime sooner.


Coo-coos in Lotus Pose

Ever since my last post & the decision I made with myself & also with my husband of not listening to anyone in regards to their input of how to raise my little baby, I have connected even more with my beautiful little boy! He never cries & only wakes up once I twice during night to be feed. He smiles & coo-coos. On top of it, he slept all by himself during the day yesterday & have started to be able to play & coo-coo on his own.

And due to my little baby now being able too coo-coo & sleep by himself during the day, mama gets some lone time, which means yoga time!!

Yesterday I managed both to stand still for a few seconds in a pincha & learn how to get into a lotus pose while doing a supported headstand! Soo exciting as mama got to coo-coo all on her own in her lotus pose!

My next mission is to manage to take myself to my long-waited Bikram class but I am slowly conquering one thing at a time.


Even a Fallen Angel Won’t Resist Sugar

My quit-smoking app now says that I have gone 1 year & 2 months & 1 day since I last had my cigarette. I have also gone 11 months & 1 day since my last glass of wine (or I did have a few at that time). However, my indulgence in sugar & chocolate never ended…. During my pregnancy, I have had at least one chocolate bite or candy on a daily basis…. Until a week ago – where I decided I need to cut the sugar & chocolate out from my system. And I did!

So now I have gone 1 week and 1 day without eating sugar & chocolate. However, it has been very challenging cutting out the sugar & chocolate. It is actually much tougher than to quit smoking & drinking. Sugar is in everything & you can find it everywhere. Additionally, where do you stop? Do you stop at 9 gram of sugar, 15 gram, 20 gram….there is sugar in everything. And what about drinking orange juice?…

Today I have had ice-cream on my mind….and it has gone a week…. and I see this beautiful shiny box of ice-cream in my head. I can even taste the ice-cream. And I do have that beautiful box of ice-cream in the freezer…

I did read that if you crave sugar, it might be because you are dehydrated. But the water bottle has still not yet been enough for me… instead I went & made a cup of coffee for myself & added one teaspoon (4 gram) of sugar to it…is that allowed?

It’s all in the mind. I still have 13 days until the habit/craving is supposed to be gone until then I guess I will have try to mentally free myself from the screaming box of ice-cream…and also work on not having a cup of coffee for each time I got a box of ice-cream screaming my name….cause that is also addicting….

What to do with all these addictions….when will we ever be free?

Even the fallen angel didn't help my ice-cream craving...:)

Even the fallen angel didn’t help my ice-cream craving…:)


Baby Yogi Countdown & inspiring Yoga Shoot with @fitqueenirene

Now it’s less than a week until little Peanut is scheduled to arrive. I went to the doctor yesterday and my body hasn’t adjusted yet for his arrival but he is all ready to go – he has got his position upside down (downward dog) ready for a while. Isn’t it amazing how we have been able to live in such a small little swaddle place upside down/sideways/or in any position for 9 (/10) months – and when we come out we learn everything from scratch – not being able to breathe in water – and amazingly we where made in liquid.

I think life is fascinating.

BTW – I have been a little busy these past few days – got the opportunity to meet & get to know FitQueenIrene (@fitqueenirene) from Instagram. She is such an inspiration! Amazingly bendy, fit & strong. I got a chance to photograph her & it was soo much fun. I not only enjoy photographing myself on my “selfie-yoga-sprees” but realized it is a lot of fun photographing other yogi/ini’s! She was such an easy model to photograph since she can hold her handstands for a very long time. And at times it was me taking the time finding a good angle rather than her finding a good position in holding her pose.

I hope you will enjoy the below photo shoot as much as I did!

Namaste to you from Peanut & I.


Amazingly bendy & fit @fitqueenirene doing a beautiful asana at Waimanalo Beach.


Even Peanut & I got a chance to hang with Ms. FitQueenIrene:) We had a lot of fun & of course we where careful & enjoyed hanging out in the sun.


If I only could bend a little I would be happy. She is even able to make a split into a teardrop split! Amazing!


If you haven’t followed her you should! @fitqueenirene on Instagram – she is known to be the handstand queen with amazing bandhas.

Artificial Indulgences….

This past week I fell off the bandwagon again. I even indulged in chocolate cakes, Starbucks (again….I know) & Pumpkin Crunches. It is not that I am indulging in pizza’s and cheese burgers all day long – but I slipped. I missed eating my daily salad bowl & drinking my morning lemon water. Today I was wondering of the whys of these frequent bandwagon slips. I realized that most of the time I slip/fall off my healthy bandwagon is when I get out of my daily regiment of chores & things I do. This past week has been a little out of the daily regiment, with a BBQ get together, Warrior Dash and so forth. I even started to indulge in a daily Snickers bar because I started getting crazy sugar cravings – {bad}.

So today I went by Whole Foods & got me some healthy yoghurt almond sweets together with some chia seeds for my breakfast tomorrow morning! I know the yoghurt almonds are also very sugar potent but I rather indulge in yoghurt almonds than in a artificial Snickers bar, or what do you think?

My chia seed breakfast of tomorrow {Organic apple sauce, chia seeds, cinnamon & vanilla - here I come!} Inspired by

My chia seed breakfast of tomorrow {Organic Milk, apple sauce, chia seeds, cinnamon & vanilla – here I come!} Inspired by

Yoghurt Covered Almonds...sooo good. Need to learn how to make those myself!

Yoghurt Covered Almonds…sooo good. Need to learn how to make those myself!

Bikram & a Spicy Tuna Bowl Pleeeaassee.

There are 3 things that I really miss while being pregnant:

  • A Spicy Tuna Bowl
  • Salmon Lox Bagel
  • Bikram Yoga

Once Peanut comes out from living the belly life I am going to ask my husband to get me a large spicy tuna bowl. And the following day I am going to enjoy a Salmon Lox  bagel for breakfast from one of my favorite breakfast places here on the island – Bogarts that is right by Diamond Head. And after I have healed & am allowed to return to yoga practice – the first place I am going to is to the Bikram studio in Kaimuki. I am soo looking forward to totally detox myself with sweat, heat & yoga.

Isn’t it amazing how you can look forward to the small things in life – it doesn’t need to be anything extravagant but something that you really indulged in & once you cannot have it anymore it is greatly missed.

Oh…..I do have another 4th small additional missing pointer – to continue to learn how to run again. I want to be be able to conquer Diamond Head not by my current tiny walking footsteps but by a sweeping dynamic storm together with Peanut:)

I am still eating bagels but the salmon is soo missed!

I am still eating bagels but the salmon is soo missed!

Soo miss doing Bikram yoga in the heat! Need a total detox.

Soo miss doing Bikram yoga in the heat! Need a total detox.

Left vs. Right Side Tightness in My Yoga Practice

I have noticed something I think is pretty bad. My left side is a lot more tighter & unflexible than my right side. Most of my postures are pretty good on the right side but every time I move to the left it strains, unflexes & just get stuck.

And since I love to analyze things – I am wondering why I am having this problem & the reason behind it.

There are various theories & studies out there sharing information about the difference between a left-handed person and a right-handed person. I am a left-handed person, so you would think that my left hand side would be more open but it is the opposite. However, research shows that there can be cross-over reference of the brain – left-handed people can be ruled by the right side of the brain and right-handed are the opposite.

I am wondering if that could be the reason of my right sided dominance in my yoga practice? But I really do need to start favoring the left hand side whether I want it or not – otherwise I will never be able balance myself out. And I might end up limping my way through my senior years.

Are you a left-handed or right-handed person, what side do you have more tightness on? What side do you favor the most?

Left handed but feeling strained on my right hand side throughout all my yoga poses.

Left handed but feeling strained on my right hand side throughout all my yoga poses.

Yoga Teacher Training on Freeze.

You might have noticed. I haven’t updated anything about the yoga teacher training that I mentioned I wanted to take. I didn’t sign up. But I would love to become a yoga teacher. However, after much thought I think once I am ready with my pregnancy & once I have settled in with the life of being a mother I want to look into becoming a yoga teacher again. In that case I think I will become a Ashtanga teacher & use Ashtanga as my base rather than any other form of yoga.

The teacher training is a chapter I wanted to open but closed as I didn’t feel that the style of yoga that was taught was my cup of tea & I felt that I am more comfortable with Ashtanga then any other form of yoga. {Bikram I love for the amazing detox it gives – but I don’t feel challenged with just the 26 postures – I feel that I need more than 26 postures & heat}.

I did actually get pretty far with the yoga class that I wanted to attend & I even ordered the yoga books that was required, which are books that I will be going through anyways even though I won’t get the physical teaching & practice of becoming a yoga teacher.

Books that I ordered for my yoga teacher training – got some reading to do!

A Blissful Savasana

Yesterday was my last day of a 4-weekend workshop of the half primary series of Ashtanga. Since my belly has started to grow at a much faster rate, I am not able to do all the postures fully. However, I am tagging along, smiling & mentally connecting with Peanut more than ever. One of the most treasured moments I had was by the end of the workshop. I know we all love savasana –  one of the most peaceful poses of them all – where we get to let go of everything. However, during the time I was doing the prenatal version of savasana in yesterdays class – I got a real blissful moment that I will never forget. Everyone was laying around me, the sun gazing through the windows, hearing the palm trees through the wind & we all connected as a group of yogi’s enjoying the final moment of breath & release. In the midst of it all – I get some little tiny vague kicks reminding me of the little life that is forming itself while I am breathing & letting go.

The little baby has been kicking all along for the past few weeks but just this moment was special, the feeling, the bliss & the life in a moment of savasana with the breeze, sun & a little tiny kicks was a moment that I will never forget.

Life is truly amazing.

Savasana Pose - Only held this pose in less than a minute for the picture. Otherwise I always lay on the left side.

Savasana Pose – Only held this pose in less than a minute for the picture. Otherwise I always lay on the side but I do miss laying on my belly a lot!

Day 5 – From Dark to Light Upward Bows

Bending backwards have never been a problem. Believe it or not I really enjoy doing this pose. I have an easier time doing backward bends rather than forward bends. I love finding the meaning of what a pose does for you both mentally and physically and in regards to the Yoga Magazine the upward bow/wheel pose {Urdhva Dhanurasana} is heart chakra opener that counteracts depression & anxiety. And I have to admit sometimes I can get both depressed & anxious. So next time I start feeling any of the dullness & dark trying to sneak it’s way through to my mind – I will put myself in the upward bow & counteract the dullness and dark to happiness and light.

By doing the upward bow {Urdhva Dhanurasana} you will help counteract any symptoms of depression & anxiety.

By doing the upward bow {Urdhva Dhanurasana} you will help counteract any symptoms of depression & anxiety.

Day 4 – Cocoon Hips.

Today I am butterflying out the pose that is set for the @growsobeautiful challenge. When I was younger I used to be able to do this pose easily but now I have got the tightest hips on the planet, which I need to work out before little Peanut comes out. So I guess I need to go back to the mat and work on those tight hips so that my little butterfly can fly out from it’s cocoon once we hit the end of the June mark!

Yesterdays Ashtanga workshop was very interesting. I didn’t know there where 6 series in the Ashtanga practice – and I am at the moment working on conquering the 1/2 half primary series. I won’t even want to think about the full series as that is another chapter I will open within the far future. We spent most of the class focusing on doing the correct breathing together with learning how to do Surya Namaskara A & B (sun salutations) properly.

Butterflying out Day 4 of the @growsobeautiful Instagram challenge.

My hips are currently in cocoon stage of the Butterfly pose:)

Practicing Sun Salutations but realized that my hands should be touching the ground in Ashtanga rather than the feet (I guess I was going for Ashtanga/Bikram style in this picture).

Practicing Sun Salutations but realized that my hands should be touching the ground in Ashtanga rather than the feet (I guess I was going for Ashtanga/Bikram style in this picture).

Ego + Yoga = Life Lessons

When I started doing yoga my ego was almost bigger than the classroom. It at times was difficult to get myself in through the door. I loved watching myself in the mirror (on the good days), when my body gave up on the ego & let me enjoy the postures with the right form but not with the right intention. At times I struggled & almost injured myself because I wanted to become better than my body allowed me to be. When I started to realize that it was not  my body who was straining myself but my ego – I slowly started making progress with my balance, breathing, mind & body.

If I didn’t get these ego “aha” moments I would probably have become injured and strained myself from yoga and maybe even lost the passion for this amazing life journey yoga has brought me.

At this point in my life I have still yet crossed a ego path of being pregnant and physically straining myself from being able to do some of my favorite asanas. I am physically not able to do the things that I used to be able to do and I am standing by a cross road of learning another life lesson of letting it go. I am in the midst of learning how to enjoy yoga with a more simple form – forming a deeper understanding of what the “simpler” version of yoga will do to deepen my connection with my body, mind & spirit.

So – to end this note of today “ego” I am now asking you to step out of my way.


Ego kindly step out of the way for my

Just me.

Beautiful Butterfly Flutters & New Life.

So I haven’t fully revealed that I got blessed with carrying a new little life! My little Peanut is now 18 weeks and is slowly showing itself through the growth of pushing out my belly. This little life at times shares some beautiful butterfly flutters. I cannot describe the feeling of joy I have at times, the sense of magic a life brings us & the deep connection it brings you to your partner.

It takes two to tango as they say, and I am soo blessed to have my beautiful husband, father-to-be & best friend to tango with me together to the sound of a new life, which I look forward to share with for the rest of my life.

18 weeks with my little Peanut slowly showing itself by pushing out the belly.

18 weeks with my little Peanut slowly showing itself by pushing out the belly.

Peaceful Vinyasa Treatment.

Since my last post I managed to take myself to two classes two days in a row (my blog discipline outreach worked:))! Yesterday I went to a peaceful Vinyasa yoga class with a new teacher at the gym. I am mostly used to practice Ashtanga & Bikram – and in the midst of the Vinyasa class it felt like I had sent myself to a spa treatment. It was a calm, peaceful class with great tranquility & ambiance. I thanked the teacher once the class was finished for the peace she shared for the 1 hour & 15 minutes. She mentioned that her method is to focus on the inner self than the outer as we already are too focused on our outer self both through fitness & in our every day life.

The whole class experience was not physically straining but instead mentally soothing & I felt refreshed when I walked out of the studio. Really enjoying the evening of the Hawaiian Christmas Chilled Air – everything felt rejuvenating, blissful & calm – even though I was sitting in a pre-Christmas traffic jam:)

So I have decided that from now on I am going to go to the Vinyasa Spa treatment yoga class once a week for some rejuvenation in between my Ashtanga & Bikram classes. I think everyone should have a Vinyasa yoga class at least once a week – a much cheaper gift than a spa treatment both for the mind & the soul.

And now when I am writing about it – I think I just found my Christmas gift that I am going to give to both my family & friends this year and for future years to come!


Om Mani Padme Hum Birthday Gift.

It was my birthday the other day & got myself a gift over the virtual web that I really thought was unique & special – an Om Mani Padme Hum prayer pendant necklace. It’s beautiful & you can even open it – where it includes a the Buddhist mantra of Om Mani Padme Hum.

The mantra represents the six syllables of purification of the six realms of existence: generosity, ethics, patience, diligence, renunciation, wisdom – I am not a Buddhist, maybe in the future I will become one but at this moment I am just a practitioner of yoga & peace – finding both peace in myself & sharing it with others.

A Om Mani Padme Hum Pendant gift - representing the purification of the six realms of existense.

A Om Mani Padme Hum Pendant gift – representing the purification of the six realms of existence.

Surya Namaskara Sunday.

Today was a calm & peaceful Sunday where I finally was able to get my hubby man to join me in my yoga practice. Out of all people I know – my hubby man is the one that needs yoga the most – he is as flexible as a refrigerator:) We did the Surya Namaskara Sun Salutations A & B. I haven’t been able to go to my Ashtanga class for the past few weeks – so it was nice to get back into the groove & I really enjoyed doing it with my man. I hope that he one day will find the tiniest interest in yoga as I have found in his tennis:) & would love to do a few sun salutations together with him on a daily basis when we go out for our walks.

My hubby man doing the Downward Facing Dog – Adho Mukha Svanasana

Upward Facing Dog – Urdhva Mukha Svanasana

Doing the Bridge Pose with one leg up (Eka Pada Urdhva Dhanurasana) – but I still don’t manage to do it with the leg straight yet – one day – patience..

The Yoga Spot of Invasion

Today I went to my favorite morning class at the Bikram Studio – the teacher Brent is great! He doesn’t have you stand in the poses for a minute and a half, but he does give you pointers & make you give each pose 110%. He is a tough instructor but still yet efficient and very knowledgeable about yoga & Bikram. He share the various techniques of how to get into the postures correct and the benefits of what we are trying to accomplish every time we got to class.

The funny thing is when I went to class today – every time since I started in January – I found this special spot in the yoga studio, which has become “mine”. It is actually by the 3rd window from the left, just by the window if you look at the below picture. When I get to class – if someone would have taken the spot, I get confused, and even a little anxious at times. I feel lost. It is soo weird, it is just a spot in a studio, which is not mine but for some reason I have taken ownership of that spot.

Today a lady had almost taken my spot, there was this very tight room left close to the window. At first I put my yoga mat next to her on the other side, but quickly moved it to “my” spot….but then I realized that I had invaded on her space. And apologized, but it looked like she didn’t mind, so I stayed.

Now when I think about it afterwards, I should probably start to get used to the studio a bit more and try different spots and just work on my “comfort” zone a bit…which will be my new Bikram Yoga project.

Do you have a favorite spot in your studio? Do you feel that someone invaded on your space, if your spot has been taken?

Feeling Delighted from my Sunday Yoga Class! Such a emotional & physical detox!

My "spot" is by the 3rd window from the left side....

A Little Quietness

So I have been a little quiet from my blog for a week – I got thrown off of the photo challenge with Lululemon – it was a bit challenging to match the chosen words they had for their challenge with finding something that would resemble or fit the daily word. But other than that I have spent most of my time working. I still have found the time to do yoga. I even purchased a $3 app to my iphone, which is great!

The app is actually really good – Michael Gannon who is the voice for the workout gives you a few pointers that I didn’t hear before….what I do is that I put my speaker phones on, dig my phone into my running hip bag and play my app. I went to my favorite place Lanikai today and before I enjoyed the day at the beach I followed Mr. Michael Gannon halfway through the Ashtanga series. Didn’t do the full “class” today – I am still sore from my Ashtanga class I did yesterday.

Anyone else who have tried the Ashtanga Yoga app? I strongly recommend it – in case you don’t go to any Ashtanga class & if you have an iphone – it is definitely worth the $3. The only downfall is that you don’t have anyone correcting you.

Favorite Beach in the Whole Wide World – Lanikai

Favorite Yoga App in the Whole Wide World – Yoga

A Better Day than Yesterday. Set the Bar.

Even though yesterday was a “me” day – I felt a little “down” & lonely. My hubby man had to go to Maui for a tennis tournament, and initially I thought I was going to enjoy the weekend myself but I ended up not enjoying it. Yesterday was a beautiful day but I didn’t feel it being beautiful. My friend gave me a advice a while back that if you feel down or lonely – don’t try to get rid of the feeling. Live in it and recognize the feeling. A interesting philosophy that she shared, so yesterday I tried my best to live in the feeling of being lonely and down. And it looks like I woke up on the right side today and I feel much better. I even went and got my favorite take-out and worked out at the gym for a bit mixing a functional training workout with some yoga moves.

Now I am off to the couch to watch some Sunday TV – even though I kind of stopped watching TV – at times I like to watch & see what happens in the world & get a reality check.

Today’s WTF Photo Challenge was to Set the Bar(re) – so I set my bar at the gym with a way off  “standing-head-to-knee” pose – I had to hold the camera at the same time:) Tomorrow it is reflection time.

#wtf photo challenge day 2 – set the bar(re)…


My backward bend

(WTF)September Photo Challenge – Day 1 – The Centre

Today was a day just about me. A focus on myself. It is Saturday & this morning I woke up early & went to my Bikram class. Today’s class was better then yesterday. However, my body “tenses” up soo quickly – and it takes a little bit time for me to warm up.

After the Bikram class I went home and ate my favorite breakfast – lox bagel w/ creme cheese & capers:). Once breakfast was complete – I went into my Post-Yoga-CRASH-syndrome again and had a wonderful nap with lots of dreams.

By the end of the day I took a drive around the island to get my photo challenge picture of the day – it doesn’t really show the “centre” but it is a image of the beauty & calming feeling of a “centre” – the sunset. Once you sit and enjoy a sunset & it will take your mind and breath away!