Purity of Life & Life Changes

I was privileged of being able to become a mother during my lifetime and just by the day I see how my little boy is growing & developing into a personality of his own. How a clean slate of human being starts to develop feelings from the survival mode of primal instincts to waking up with a glowing smile to crying for comfort & love.

However, at times I get eye openers – from living my very coveted life in my tiki hut with my beautify husband & baby boy, doing yoga, reading Dalai Lama teachings & talking walks around one of the most beautiful places on earth Diamond Head to seeing terrible events happening in the news, getting doors shut in the face at the grocery store to people cutting in front of you in line. Those eye openers makes you both sad & shocked that there is another life outside of the coveted tiki hut life of love, care & family.

And it shockss me how we from being born with a purity of life become egotistical, hurtful & selfish. What makes us change so abruptly from the purity of life to loosing ourselves in adulthood?….Being a mother makes me wonder what life changes creates selfishness, hate & non-compassion.

 

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Bikram I’m back!

2 months & 17 days in from recovering & adjusting to mommy hood I get to visit the Bikram shala with my mat! What an experience! I had a feeling of gratitude through most of the practice. However, at times I really missed my little son since I never have been away from him before. I cannot imagine mama’s who have to work & leave their little blessings at home!! I am soo blessed to be able to stay home with my little spirit!

At first it was easy going through all the breathing & initial poses but after about 30 minutes I was ready to throw in the towel. My mind started feeling sorry for myself as I was still recovering from pregnancy I thought….at around 50 minutes of heat, sweat & yoga I finally started to really enjoy the practice. My feelings of gratitude & happiness came back! And the timing of waiting for more than 2 months felt perfect! I wouldn’t have enjoyed doing Bikram anytime sooner.

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Coo-coos in Lotus Pose

Ever since my last post & the decision I made with myself & also with my husband of not listening to anyone in regards to their input of how to raise my little baby, I have connected even more with my beautiful little boy! He never cries & only wakes up once I twice during night to be feed. He smiles & coo-coos. On top of it, he slept all by himself during the day yesterday & have started to be able to play & coo-coo on his own.

And due to my little baby now being able too coo-coo & sleep by himself during the day, mama gets some lone time, which means yoga time!!

Yesterday I managed both to stand still for a few seconds in a pincha & learn how to get into a lotus pose while doing a supported headstand! Soo exciting as mama got to coo-coo all on her own in her lotus pose!

My next mission is to manage to take myself to my long-waited Bikram class but I am slowly conquering one thing at a time.

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Back to Practice

I’m now 6 weeks into my recovery from the pregnancy. And I got the clearance from my doctor that I can start exercising again. Soo happy! I still haven’t found my way to my long craved Ashtanga or Bikram class but I have practiced at home. And my body is very stiff from being gone from yoga for a month & a half. This journey of 9 (-10) months of pregnancy to post recovery has been amazing, magical and the most loving experience in my life. But also the most toughest and challenging for my ego as i used to do yoga on a daily basis and found it to be my daily medicine. However, this life journey is definitely something I would do again at any time!

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The Yoga Soul(s) is back.

I haven’t bloggid for a loong time. I think I get inspired to bloggi when I do yoga. My mind starts to think about all the ins & outs about both the world, my surroundings and myself. For the past weeks I have grown a lot & the heaviness have made me even dread taking a walk around Diamond Head – so my yoga practice have suffered. I converted my Ashtanga practice to a weekly prenatal practice. And have kept up with my instagram pictures but not as fully as I would have wanted to.

Now it is only 8 weeks left until Peanut is scheduled to arrive out of living his belly life. And yes, I am not sure if I mentioned but it is a little yogi boy in there. I think he is enjoying his belly life in there. I get to feel both his arms, legs & head move around on a daily basis. Even though he is in the belly I never imagined the love I have for this little bundle of joy.

Here is a update of the latest & greatest picture I took for my IG yoga account, which shows Peanut. And in a few days I am starting a prenatal yoga challenge for all mom’s-to-be who are on IG to join. And I decided since I haven’t bloggid for a long time – I will also add the challenge to this blog, which will show a daily prenatal yoga pose with some inspirational words & directions.

Namaste to you all & I look forward blogging again!

Latest Sand Island IG update of the growing belly – now we have hit the 32 week milestone.

the Rita I am.

I am still reading the Happiness Project by author Gretchen Rubin & today it made me want to write a blog post about it. One of the author’s punch list items is to be Gretchen (herself). If you are more connected with yourself, you will have an easier time to find the happiness that you are looking for, which is the basis of the book.

Ever since I was young I always had a tendency to get inspired by others. My childhood was not the easiest, I found myself often wanting to be someone else as I didn’t know how & who I was. This has been an insecurity that has been following me throughout the years. However, just from this past year of going through my very own lifestyle change of living healthy, quitting smoking, not drinking, exercising with yoga & slowly developing a positive mind (through all of the above). I am finally starting to become more grounded & finally becoming myself, the Rita I am. A person with less materialistic needs, less worries & anxiety, living in the moment yet being responsible, loving to inspire & create.  And above all – is not afraid to see my true self in the mirror.

Thanks to the author Rubin, I got an eye opener in today’s chapter of how I have finally become myself (or finally found myself). It is as the Buddhist proverb says, “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear“. Even though the Happiness Project is “just” a book, it has given me some eye openers throughout the chapters that have made me realize that this past year has been a year of self-realization & maturity of finding the Rita I am.

Finding myself.

A year of self-realization & maturity.

Ginger & Pomegranate Mask

Today it’s raining but I still got to clean up in my little herbal garden. When my mother-in-law came to visit, she picked a ginger plant while we went hiking (I avoided picking it as I didn’t want the little Menehunes come knocking on my door but I figured I would have my mother-in-law do it as she lives in Sweden – and we only have trolls in Sweden:)) And now the ginger plant is all growing up & sprouting! I am not sure though how I am going to get pieces of it without having to pick the whole plant….something I might have to google..

Oh well, today I got to get to know my new Korean neighbor a little bit more, she even gave me a Korean face mask – which I am definitely going to try. I like it that it is pomegranate – I guess Korean beauty products are well known & popular in Asia. I am totally in need of a facial rejuvenation – the preggo hormones, sunshine & no Bikram have made my skin a little dried out.

Got my herbal garden all cleaned up & my Hawaiian ginger plant is starting to sprout!

Got my herbal garden all cleaned up & my Hawaiian ginger plant is starting to sprout!

Korean Pomegranate Facial Mask - let's see if it will do some magic.

Korean Pomegranate Facial Mask – let’s see if it will do some magic.

Time & Messages.

Do you believe in signs or messages? At times I do. A while ago I found at least one penny laying around me anywhere I went on a daily basis. My mother-in-law used to find feathers all around her. She also believes in signs/messages at times. Now lately I have had a tendency to see 11:11, 111, 1111 numbers all over but I am not sure why. Every night I go to bed I for some reason catch the watch at 11:17 without wanting to catch it.

Today I saw the message of “the days are long, but the years are short” – twice. You might think it is only twice, but for some reason I resonate with it when I see it. Maybe it is my pregnancy that makes me resonate with the message, since I am about to turn in to a parent in a few months. At times I feel that time is flying by but I am standing still.

Do you ever feel that your time is standing still even though you are juggling 10,000 things in your daily life? Do you have a tendency to see signs or find strange messages around you?

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Standing still in the tree pose but still have the feeling that time is flying by.

A New Bright Tuesday.

When I woke up this morning it was a bright & sunny Tuesday. Yesterday when I woke up it was a dull & grey Monday…it’s amazing how you make a day change so drastically over night. For me the change happened right during my Ashtanga practice. From being a dull, boring, negative & grey day to a beautiful, happy, content & bright day.

Whether you practice vinyasa, power yoga, iyengar or even Ashtanga or if you exercise something else – I think we all have the mental output of finding that wonderful feeling that will replace the dullness – all we need to do is to push ourselves through sweat, hard work & mental exhaustion to find the sunlight.

So today my husband even got some homemade Swedish pancakes for breakfast. And I replaced my recent Starbucks addiction with a glass of Orange juice!

Homemade Swedish Pancakes on the Menu this Sunny Tuesday!

Homemade Swedish Pancakes on the Menu this Sunny Tuesday!

Replaced my Starbucks Addiction with Orange Juice.

Replaced my Starbucks Addiction with Orange Juice.

The To-Do’s Against Tense Shoulders.

Wow, my shoulders aren’t feeling as heavy & tight anymore. You might think it is from me doing yoga but no, it is not. The past few days I have cleaned up the house. I still have a long way to go, but I have started to really follow through on my to-do list. At times it takes a little while to get started but I am slowly but steadily going through the items I listed down. For each item my shoulders tense up.

For the past few weeks I have had this cloud of to-do’s that have weighed me down & instead I have ran away from them. Done all the fun stuff. The to-do’s have been anything from recycling the cans & bottles underneath the stairway to sorting the office papers that was piled up right underneath my nose.

So…..maybe that is why the massage therapist always say that I have tight shoulders! Maybe the tight shoulders are not only from working in front of the computer, but always tense up a little extra for all the little things I have set back not to do.

Day 13 out of the @GrowSoulBeautiful Instagram Yoga Challenge – the High Lunge

Hand to Big Toe Pose - One of the tougher Poses for me to do in the Ashtanga Series.

Hand to Big Toe Pose – One of the tougher Poses for me to do in the Ashtanga Series.

Marriage Satisfaction To-Do List.

I started to dig deeper into the book I bought not too long ago – The Happiness Project. It is actually a really interesting book, for almost every 2 to 3rd page I want to stop & make scribbles as I want to keep the information to remember for my future.

One of the interesting facts that came up today while I took an hour of my day to read through the book (which will definitely relate to me within the very near future) is that the satisfaction in a marriage substantially drops after the first child. This is proven through research. So I have decided to create a mental to-do list where I will add the task of working on not dropping the satisfaction in the marriage I have with my beautiful soul mate, the love of my life, best friend & husband once little Peanut comes out.

Another interesting fact is that the author herself is not living her life in misery, she is rather doing damage control and working on preventing any future instances where her happiness could be jeopardized. An interesting fact, kind of ties in with my quote that I created the other day.

By the way  – Happy Valentines Day to you today – it’s interesting how I am funneling about marriage dissatisfaction prevention on the most loving day of the year – Valentines. Let’s see how my husband reacts when I bring up the mental to-do list marriage dissatisfaction idea on our romantic Indian dinner this evening:)

Marriage Dissatisfaction Mental To-Do List.

Marriage Dissatisfaction Mental To-Do List.

Yoga Mantra of the Day: The Future Depends on What We Do in the Present

Today I made a new mantra quote as I thought it was time for a yoga mantra of the day update. At times I forget that what we do today is basically sowing the seeds for tomorrow. So today I am sharing the quote of a very inspiring person whose philosophy & knowledge  I love to follow & live by – Mahatma Gandhi.

The Future Depends on What We Do in the Present - Mahatma Gandhi - Yoga Mantra Quote

The Future Depends on What We Do in the Present – Mahatma Gandhi – Yoga Mantra Quote

Day 9 through Day 12 – Ashtanga Red Bull Energy.

So I have been a little quiet with blogging for the past few days. I have been active on Instagram posting my daily yoga challenge pictures for this month, which has been a lot of fun. And I did do Ashtanga as I mentioned in my Friday post & I loved it! I even went on a Ashtanga Basic Fundamentals class this weekend, which is very interesting and helpful as the teacher Yoko shows you how to do each pose with the right form, technique & breathing. Below is an update of the poses that I missed posting for day 10 and 11. I will share the 12th day with you tomorrow together with the new daily pose for day 13.

Now I am off to go & continue my office work, paper work, preparing taxes and other fun stuff….got new energy from my Ashtanga practice & seminar this weekend – it is almost like I had a Ashtanga version of Red Bull Energy from all the practice I got this past weekend!

My pregnant version of the Supta Baddha Konasana pose. You can see Peanut peaking out a little bit.

My pregnant version of the Supta Baddha Konasana pose. You can see Peanut peaking out a little bit.

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The Utkatasana – Chair pose.

Day 5 – From Dark to Light Upward Bows

Bending backwards have never been a problem. Believe it or not I really enjoy doing this pose. I have an easier time doing backward bends rather than forward bends. I love finding the meaning of what a pose does for you both mentally and physically and in regards to the Yoga Magazine the upward bow/wheel pose {Urdhva Dhanurasana} is heart chakra opener that counteracts depression & anxiety. And I have to admit sometimes I can get both depressed & anxious. So next time I start feeling any of the dullness & dark trying to sneak it’s way through to my mind – I will put myself in the upward bow & counteract the dullness and dark to happiness and light.

By doing the upward bow {Urdhva Dhanurasana} you will help counteract any symptoms of depression & anxiety.

By doing the upward bow {Urdhva Dhanurasana} you will help counteract any symptoms of depression & anxiety.

Day 3 – A Quick Cup of Yoga Latte with the Downward Dog.

This is probably one of my (favorite) poses of them all in terms of really feeling that the body is making improvements in all the limbs. This is not the pose of choice but it really works me every time I do it and the improvements happen in just minutes – a quick cup of yoga latte I would say for anyone who is wondering what this pose will do for you! Maybe the quick improvements is what makes me enjoy it soo much. We all want to improve & feel good about ourselves quickly/instantly. So for someone who need to stretch it all out after their workout, (especially a runner) I would end my run by stretching out my limbs by honoring the earth with the downward dog !

Are you enjoying your Superbowl Sunday? I myself is not a big fan of football – so instead I decided in the very last minute to join a 4 weeks series Ashtanga workshop at Open Space Yoga with my favorite &  the best Ashtanga instructors here on the island Yoko! So excited – I am so happy that I get to spend Superbowl Sunday with learning the ins & outs about Ashtanga rather than hearing a loud sportscaster on television!

Honoring the sky with the Downward Dog - a quick full-body-feel-good-stretch of the day!

Honoring the earth with the Downward Dog – a quick cup of yoga latte!

Ego + Yoga = Life Lessons

When I started doing yoga my ego was almost bigger than the classroom. It at times was difficult to get myself in through the door. I loved watching myself in the mirror (on the good days), when my body gave up on the ego & let me enjoy the postures with the right form but not with the right intention. At times I struggled & almost injured myself because I wanted to become better than my body allowed me to be. When I started to realize that it was not  my body who was straining myself but my ego – I slowly started making progress with my balance, breathing, mind & body.

If I didn’t get these ego “aha” moments I would probably have become injured and strained myself from yoga and maybe even lost the passion for this amazing life journey yoga has brought me.

At this point in my life I have still yet crossed a ego path of being pregnant and physically straining myself from being able to do some of my favorite asanas. I am physically not able to do the things that I used to be able to do and I am standing by a cross road of learning another life lesson of letting it go. I am in the midst of learning how to enjoy yoga with a more simple form – forming a deeper understanding of what the “simpler” version of yoga will do to deepen my connection with my body, mind & spirit.

So – to end this note of today “ego” I am now asking you to step out of my way.

Namaste.

Ego kindly step out of the way for my

Just me.

Beautiful Butterfly Flutters & New Life.

So I haven’t fully revealed that I got blessed with carrying a new little life! My little Peanut is now 18 weeks and is slowly showing itself through the growth of pushing out my belly. This little life at times shares some beautiful butterfly flutters. I cannot describe the feeling of joy I have at times, the sense of magic a life brings us & the deep connection it brings you to your partner.

It takes two to tango as they say, and I am soo blessed to have my beautiful husband, father-to-be & best friend to tango with me together to the sound of a new life, which I look forward to share with for the rest of my life.

18 weeks with my little Peanut slowly showing itself by pushing out the belly.

18 weeks with my little Peanut slowly showing itself by pushing out the belly.

The Happiness Project.

Today I went by the store and found myself in the book isle….hm….I do own a kindle and I stopped buying paperbacks so I am not sure what I was doing there. Right in front of me this yellow book shines. I have read about Gretchen Rubin and her Happiness Project and find her inspirational at times. I sometimes visit her blog to find inspiration about how and what she is thinking about happiness. She is a former lawyer so I figured she does her research & justifies her findings before she write her stories/posts.

Happiness have become such a “big” thing both through television, the internet & social media – where everyone is in search for the happiness “fix”. I personally believe that happiness is a state of mind we find ourselves in during special moments – the feelings of happiness comes in burst rather than finding itself as a being constant feeling.

I still yet will be reading the book to see if Ms. Gretchen Rubin found the secret formula of increasing her happiness through her own joyful Happiness Project. Once I am done reading the book I will share an update with you of my own interpretation of how she defines Happiness & also if she successfully increased her daily joy.

 

The Happiness Project unconsiously found itself in my shopping cart. Let's see if I can find the secret formula of adding joy to the mix.

The Happiness Project unconsiously found itself in my shopping cart. Let’s see if I can find the secret formula of adding joy to the mix.